The disillusionment

I don't have enough courage. I like to stay in comfort. Do not want to take pain. I am no activist.

Neither I am a pseudo-activist. Posting something on Facebook, sharing , liking does not help. You may have profound anger about the situation of the country. You may genuinely feel about the situation of fellow Indians, the millions who do not have equal opportunity as you or me. You may genuinely want to do something that is going to help. Somehow, anyhow. You do wish well.

I have taught some Muslim girls, from able but unwilling families. Without education and women empowerment, there is no real hope of a better generation. Women prepare the generation. So, I was doing my bit. Donated for school bags and books for children.

Does it help?

In a way it does. Like, posting, sharing on FB. Maybe a little more. I felt like I did something good. Atleast, I  tried to do my bit. Somehow, it gives a vent to the unease that builds when we see the kind of society our people have built.

It's no revolution. It doesn't change much. And the reader would be thinking that I am being overly negative.

Profound anger is useless. You are a tool for fanatics who give you hope for development while they are just pushing their agenda. It's not very different from the way poor people are swindled by cons. Cons capitalizes on your greed. These people are capitalizing on you hope.

They have a very vicious agenda. Development, effective administration and Hinduism makes a heady cocktail for most of the people. You tend to ignore the kind of divide it is going to bring. It's as catastrophic to national integrity as we see in Pakistan.

There are a lot of people who want a Hindu Rashtra. I want an open society. Only an open society is going to withstand the test of time. India is multi-ethnic and Hindu Rastra is ill conceived. I don't want anyone to be a secondary citizen just because of his/her belief system. This is our land as we are the majority and you must subordinate, can feed egos but is lethal for a country. Come on dumbfucks, just show mutual respect.

Other options? Why do you read Times of India and believe it? The media mostly is propaganda machine, be it state or anti-state. It's nothing more circus. You can enjoy it but you can't take it seriously.

The media want us to believe diesel price hike was necessary. There is a need to remove subsidy from LPG and fertilizers. The oil companies are loosing (I don't know how) many thousands of crores.

They give total misrepresentation of facts. Hide the amount of taxation on goods. And tell us how important is deregulation of prices.

There is another news item on the same paper in the same space. It talks about tax breaks given to multinationals. That also is "good" for economics. The supply is squeezed it seems, the cause for high inflation and general rot of economy. I used to think that the reason for the misery was the lack of governance.

I can't be in more disillusionment. Its not even a paradox. The common man in one of heaviest taxed countries can't be left out in cold. Deregulation makes sense when there is social security. The govt is sold out to MNCs and their lobbies. Its not that difficult to see when you see how eager our Govt is for Nuclear Power when Japan and Germany are planning to shut it down. We did not even re-think. There is too much at stake.

Its total bullshit and its amazing how many people buy it just because they read a lot of newspapers.

We are a in a hopeless situation where each choice is scarily dangerous.

While most around me have picked their horses and are ready to go despite not really pondering about where it is going, at 28, I am kind of disillusioned!!

Movie Review - Mohabbatein

Belated one.
But I just had to write one for this Atul Bedade of a movie, easily the shittiest
thing I watched that summer.
I used to be home, those days.
In my town(??), we use dung cakes for cooking purpose. Not always.
Some ladies are very good at it. They make it round. Put their heart out to shape it. And it looks it beautiful.
And it's a dung cake.
Yash Chopra, is Punjabi. Aware of these dung cakes culture. With Mohabbatein, he has payed the biggest tribute, ever, to dung cakes of North India.
<-The making of Mohabbatein
The movie is round, beautiful. And a dung cake.
Story line is as much irrelevant as Bedade's batting technique. Some 2 cool dudes and and 1 moronic hunk sing and dance around 3 girls, very stupid ones. There is one girl who is 'Dukhi', so avoided looking stupid. Chhuimui si tum lagti ho. She got an exception approval, best I can do is NO COMMENTS.

Below, the hunk Uday and Preety, Chhuimui girl. She used to look this nice.
There is a cleavage showing, big boob booty baby aka school student. Rakhi Sawant just got a better accent. Shamita had the talent to beat her for ugliness.

I never quite understood why SRK did it. Through out the movie, it appears that he is doing a parody of himself.
Mohabbatein, dumb downs the love stories to street crap.

Alright, last 20 minutes had the IQ which the rest of it was lacking. AB and SRK made it good.

World T20- Sonam Kapoor Impresses

Uncle JRod does fine with it. I vicariously enjoy his writing.
India were shit. England were not England. Pakistan were Pakistan. Austraila were Austraila. New Zealand were New Zealand. South Africa were more bull South Africa @ICC shit. Afganistan were brave. Sri Lanka were piss. Bangladesh were Bangladesh. West Indies were improving.

KP was KP, after the lost years (> Ashes 2007).
Gayle was the super cool dude, as always.
Hussy made me angry.
Sehwag, was not there.
Yusuf Pathan, was there. The Same Old Fears.
Bond, was not there, though he was there.
Umar Akmal was indeed there.
Mahela was there. Up there.
Raina was there. I saw him hitting some pull kind of shot, apparently, returning catch to bowler. He got the photographic memory, that one without a film. More awful than Lanky's slogging.
Dada, was again not there ( pull shot?? ).
Afridi, maybe, was there.
Cameron White was there.
Kallis was there, for the purists.
Clarke was there, for the opposition, England.

Steve Bucknor was not there.
Lalit Modi was not there.

Kieswetter has given a new foresight in stupid shot selection technology, pioneered by Rohit Sharma and Umar Akmal.

Moral: England won the wrong world cup, Cricinfo is correct.

What I've felt what I've known

Sometimes I feel more like myself.
And, there is definitely something is wrong with me or may be there is something wrong with everything else.
And, then I doubt myself. Am I what I am? Or is the world not what it is?
I have no idea. Sometime, I feel proud of being what I am. Some other times, I feel I am very stupid. Or at least everyone else is pretty sure that this guy is pretty stupid.
The only thing that I don't like about myself that I try to please people at many times. I must have conviction about whatever I do and I lack that. It sends a whole lot of wrong signals.
I have a very bad judgement about people.
And I just don't get social ques. Whoa..
And here, whatever I don't like about myself, ends. Pretty scary.
But why do I still live despite being so awful and inept. Despite being a total useless thing.
Because I am soo good, adorable.
I have seen a lot of beautiful people. But none beats me. Till this date.
No one I ever met, I found having as much integrity as me. This single thing sets me apart from everyone else on the planet. I am soo good. Money is not attractive. If there is one person to say that, its me. One may feel may be I have not seen that much of money. But I have.
I am intelligent. Not many people beat me, working side by side. I don't have a high IQ. I just trust my common sense. Some do beat me. And, I don't get jealous. I want to work with them, more.
I don't get jealous. I just don't feel it. There are better people and not as good people. Then, why should I get jealous. I don't get it. I just like being part of the crowd.
I love my family. I don't like the pressure they are putting me under these days. And they don't understand me. But, often, they are the people. They love you. And I love them. Nothing beats the leisure of having tea with everyone in the same room and discussing trivialities of life.
I am NON-JUDGMENTAL. Judgemental people put me off. Only God should judge. I don't judge me, other people.

And, I am dead. Just on matrix sort of auto pilot. Occasionally, some one finds my tomb and gets curious what is inside. I see light. Then, they cover me back. No commiserations, they don't even leave flowers after they saw me. I thought they had brought the candle for the peace of my soul.

Short of titles

Big problem. I am short on titles. LOL.
Dilli is doing the dew once again. RCB. I dont understand how could they manage to mess up the selection. Styne is out. Come on. You are kidding.
Well, with players from down under, complextion has changed. Very Awesome Vijay and Bollinger are turning Chennai stock's direction. Dilli will be a very hard from here on. Vettori, Nannes and Yadav, Mishra.
Chargers are done, more or less. Rajsthan was 'full strength' already. If strength is the correct word. Watson and Yusuf. How many games they may win for you?
KKR is dragged down by this season's KKR, KIX Punjab. LOL.
Mumbai is milking everything till now. But, again they could be found wanting if any attack stands up. From here, Dilli and Banglore.
I am very upset with RCB hara-kiri for some time now. No one has outplayed them except they themselves. 80 from 36.

I have this strange feeling that whenever I start believing on God. His Holiness screws me big time. Whats wrong with you man?

'Cricket' yet again

Quotes means sic! (sic!). LOL. You got to get the joke.
Banglore showed why they are 'the most versatile' side. And Punjab need therapy. They managed to loose it. LOL.
Mumbai tops the table. But get it, Banglore are the best side from here. If Sachin fails even twice in a row, you'll see cracks. What actually happening is that Sachin controls everything from the middle, be with a strike rate of 180 or of 120. As long as he is there, do not even think about winning. But again we saw, Symonds could win no more than 2-3 matches for Deccan. So Mumbai is not as 'impregnable' as it seems.
Dilli is back in contention. Thanks to Warner and Collingwood. They are the Pakistan of IPL. If they hit, they will outplay everyone. They can handle Malinga, Styne, everyone. But bowling is their weak link.
Now, Bollinger is coming for next match. CSK. IPL will get real color now as most teams are getting full strength now.
Players from Down Under really improve the quality. I don't think he can do it in test cricket, but Warner is a better bet than Sehwag.
Rajsthan needs to get it. The side is not good enough. Its all 'motivation'. No beef.
On slow and low Motera, they might fight even Banglore. But 'away', they are disappointment.
Banglore and Mumbai are 'in'. Dilli should be in soon. Rest, its pretty much anybody's game except Punjab. I would like to see KKR or CSK. No Rajsthan, please.

Tracks are getting slower. Kallis is losing form, both batting and bowling. Thats a worry. In form Kallis simply sets Banglore far apart.

Hats Off to Google, for the courage...

I am seriously concerned about my frequency of blogging. I talk about what I seriously feel about. Infrequency atleast ensures one thing.Quality :)
Google has pulled out of China. They say Go Daddy and Dell may follow. If they do, its a statement for the whole Industrialization era which has changes the color of mother earth in last 2 centuries.
Running a business has its own morals and values. Profit is sacrosanct. Everything else is discussed in context of Profit. Now, here Google has pulled out saying censoring information is against its Philosophy. Its something only an IT co could have done. Its a new business and people here think somewhat differently than some other core businesses.
Hats Off to Google, for the courage.

This IPL is sort of a festival. Sometimes average cricket. But when Sachin is batting or Banglore is bowling. You can be assured of intensity. This is one more thing I think. So many people do not play their best. Still, culture is building and this season is better than previous season for intensity of teams(exclude KKR n KXIP)
I still feel Banglore seems the best side, though they lost to Dilli. Dilli dared the real Devil. LOL. You go DD.
Call it festive season.IPL season. Its fireworks.